Guest post by Marleen Van Hoof

Behind the Scenes is about blogging, connecting.  It’s on how to make your blog look great.  It’s creative inspiration.

But, what if it’s more than that?

What if it confronted me with “me”? And made me realize that I’m still a long way from feeling enough? From learning to Trust the Process.

I know, I know, Kim & Xanthe almost said it every class: “at your own pace….  “
But still, as a perfectionist and a control person recovering from a burnout, I was put to the test.   

I was on vacation when class started, so I had to catch up.  Already from the beginning there was this “urge” inside of me to gain on lost time, fast.  I wanted to participate in every mission, comment, visit the blogs...

I felt I had to be in front of my computer screen.  There was this constant need to do something, create…

At the end of week 3, one week to go, I halted myself: “Hey this doesn’t feel right, this has to be fun. It can not be a ‘must do’, it must be a ‘love do’.” – “Why don’t I take Kim & Xanthe’s advice to take it easy? Why don’t I trust their process?”

Maybe it’s a typical burnout recovery symptom.  And well, control persons + trusting processes are kind of contradictory.

My brain knows that I have to stop before I reach my limits, that enough is… well…(good) enough.  But for my feeling it’s soooo difficult.

Anyway, this class confronted me with the fact that “I was doing it again!”

So, I shifted to a lower gear, re-read Kim’s & Xanthe’s prompts to take my time, put on Joshua Radin’s “Everything’ll be Alright” and wrote this little piece.

This is so much more than an e-course on blogging….   

Thank you Marleen! You can find her blogging HERE. 

Comments

[Cindy Swainson]

Marleen: Bless you for your generous and courageous giving of yourself so that we - and I know I can't be the only one who feels this way - can say, "Wow! I coulda written those very words myself! You mean there's others out there in the same boat?!"

[Sylvia]

Zo mooi geschreven, Marleen !
Sylvia

[Sherri B.]

I loved your post - it's so true that we constantly have to reign ourselves in in this hustle and bustle world we live in, isn't it? It's so easy to get caught up in that daily frenzy of to do lists and the ticking clock. Like you, I also kept reminding myself during Kim and Xanthe's class to just have fun and enjoy the process...and I'm still enjoying the process as I try to catch up with the BTS class! lol...slowly but surely, I'm making my way. Thanks for sharing both your words and your lovely images!

[Viv]

Marleen so true I am the same I have to get it done NOW i can't just relax and enjoy, but I do feel maybe just maybe the gentle hints and kindness of K and X maybe getting through..... Thanks for sharing....